"At 19, I read a sentence that re-terraformed my head: “The level of matter in the universe has been constant since the Big Bang.”
In all the aeons we have lost nothing, we have gained nothing - not a speck, not a grain, not a breath. The universe is simply a sealed, twisting kaleidoscope that has reordered itself a trillion trillion trillion times over.
Each baby, then, is a unique collision - a cocktail, a remix - of all that has come before: made from molecules of Napoleon and stardust and comets and whale tooth; colloidal mercury and Cleopatra’s breath: and with the same darkness that is between the stars between, and inside, our own atoms.
When you know this, you suddenly see the crowded top deck of the bus, in the rain, as a miracle: this collection of people is by way of a starburst constellation. Families are bright, irregular-shaped nebulae. Finding a person you love is like galaxies colliding. We are all peculiar, unrepeatable, perambulating micro-universes - we have never been before and we will never be again. Oh God, the sheer exuberant, unlikely face of our existences. The honour of being alive. They will never be able to make you again. Don’t you dare waste a second of it thinking something better will happen when it ends. Don’t you dare"
"After the earth dies, some 5 billion years from now, after it’s burned to a crisp, or even swallowed by the Sun, there will be other worlds and stars and galaxies coming into being - and they will know nothing of a place once called Earth."
"you’ve been in the house too long," she said
and I naturally fled
what do you wanna be when u grow up??
aaaahh I’m not completely sure yet!!
I have lots of different things in mind - I’d love to be an art critic and maybe tie that into journalism (something like the Life & Arts section in the Sunday FT, which would be incredible to write for) or writing (like Simon Schama and Robert Hughes), and also just to be a general writer / author would be insane (somewhere between writing about philosophy like Alain de Botton and general cultural commenting like Malcolm Gladwell).. or perhaps art / museum curation, that’d be really interesting too :-)